It’s Time To Stop Living Life In The Middle
I looked at the list of survey questions in front of me. It was a survey about life, something rather generic. But I couldn’t believe what I saw. A solid 5 out of 10 all the way down. It was…predicable, safe, expected.
It was sad.
I had tricked myself into believing that the middle was somehow safe. That if you stay still enough right there in that balanced place you won’t rock the boat, that you’ll stay safely above the water and all will be well.
I’m not really sure how it happened. After all, I used to love rocking the boat. But somehow I ended up here in this place of the perfectly expected. It’s a strange feeling when you don’t recognize yourself. I sometimes look at my life and feel like a confused puppy tilting my head to the side.
My life is good–no, great. This isn’t about the factors of my life, but how I approach my life.
I have been living my life in the middle. Completely average. It was what I always wanted, but now looking at this list of 5’s it feels suffocated and depressing.
I don’t want to live at a 5.
I want to take chances. I want exhilarating success and wild failing. I want to feel the spectrum of fear and joy in all their intensity. I want to be that person that has some 2’s and some 10’s, but still puts one foot in front of the other each day.
When we stay in the same place for too long everything becomes nothing and we forget why we’re here.
I’m tired of living at a five.
So I’m doing something about it.
- I’m picking up that book I stopped writing. I’m diving back in and taking the chance that it will never amount to anything (or maybe scarier still, that it will).
- I’m wearing that shirt that’s too fancy for a Wednesday, even if I end up with spaghetti sauce on it by the end of the day.
- I’m calling that friend that I haven’t talked to in forever just to say hi. (And Facebook and texting don’t count).
- I’m wearing my bathing suit and jumping in the water with my kids this summer.
- I’m getting in the pictures and smiling.
- I’m giving more.
- I’m reading a book in the middle of the day.
Living in the middle may feel safe. It may look like everything you hoped it would. There’s a big world beyond the middle.
How are you going to stretch beyond the safe places in your life and live fully?
About Becky Hastings
I am emotional and logical. I am strong and dependent. I am a juxtaposition of head and heart exploring it all through writing. And in all my mixed-up ways I am loved. I'm here to tell you that you are, too. Just the way you are.