My Ink Dance

Discovering Extraordinary Grace in an Ordinary Life

It Feels Heavy

It feels like more than I can bear. This heavy weight, a responsibility pressing down on my shoulders until I can’t move. And it makes no sense.

This heavy mantle that I attempt to carry is not what you’d expect.



It’s simple and beautiful and flowers and joy. But I know better than that.

Love, real love, soaks far deeper than the skin to those places in the soul that are empty and dry. And a dry sponge can’t soak up as much as a damp one. And that is where my heart is: dry.

But this love of God, this deep, more than I can fathom love makes it’s way in if I sit in it. And as it does I soak it up, let it seep into the innermost parts of who I am. But you can’t just walk away unchanged when you soak in so much holy.

Holiness changes you. And sometimes it feels heavy and hard to carry. But that same heaviness is the same beauty and glory you longed for in your dry bones.

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Because that heaviness you feel in the core of your being shows a beautiful, deep, full soaking in all that He has to give and all that you lack.

So let it sink deep. Let it fill you and pull you down to a grounding in all that is holy and Jesus.

Let truth sink deeper and check out the journey 31 days of Finding Your Way Home.

Linking up hope today with faithful hearts.



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About Becky Hastings

I am emotional and logical. I am strong and dependent. I am a juxtaposition of head and heart exploring it all through writing. And in all my mixed-up ways I am loved. I'm here to tell you that you are, too. Just the way you are.

10 Replies

  1. Holiness is something I am grappling with, I suppose, Becky, over at my blog and in life in general. It is a heavy mantle that I try to continually roll over on to the Lord’s strong shoulders. I love your thoughts and especially your graphics! Great post!

    1. Becky Hastings

      I suppose life is a great grappling until we’re home? Thanks for visiting 🙂

  2. Oh I get this and love this post so much. “Holiness changes you.” How powerful and beautiful. Thanks for sharing at #ThreeWordWednesday.

    1. Becky Hastings

      Thanks Kristin!

  3. Holiness seems HUGE, doesn’t it?! God’s been reminding me these days that His yoke is easy and His burden is light, that I need to find rest in Him – that I need to let Him just love on me. Thanks for the encouragement to keep soaking that in. Visiting from #threewordwednesday.

    1. Becky Hastings

      It’s funny how we can remember a verse, but not always when we really need it to apply to our lives. You reminded me of this today. My favorite version of this verse is from The Message, it feels so real: “Are you tired? Worn out? Burned out on religion? Come to me. Get away with me and you’ll recover your life. I’ll show you how to take a real rest. Walk with me and work with me—watch how I do it. Learn the unforced rhythms of grace. I won’t lay anything heavy or ill-fitting on you. Keep company with me and you’ll learn to live freely and lightly.” (Matthew 11:28-30) Thanks for visiting today 🙂

  4. Stopping over from #TellHisStory Lovely place you have here and lovely words too.

    1. Becky Hastings

      Thanks Katie!

  5. Hey, this was a beautiful post! I think I know the dry feeling … And God changing me. 🙂

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