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How To Honor God When You Are Angry

I’m pretty good at feeling. It’s a gift, really to feel so intensely. Except when it isn’t. Like when envy drives deep and all I can see is what I don’t have. Or when someone hurt me and everything around me is clouded by my own insecurity. Or when I get angry.

photo credit: Ralph A. Clevenger/CORBIS

photo credit: Ralph A. Clevenger/CORBIS

It’s in those moments that honoring God is the furthest thing from my mind. I get so wrapped up in my swirling emotion, pulled into it so that it overtakes me, and I don’t care about anything else around me.

It sounds dramatic, and maybe it’s not how it looks on the outside. But inside that’s the raw honesty of my heart. And in all of that I can’t seem to remember how to find God.

But there’s a secret that he left in red letters and promise after promise. He declared it loud and He whispered it quiet.

 

image credit: Tumblr - Sutton

image credit: Tumblr – Sutton

But somehow I forget. I think that when my emotions swirl and rage and take over, surely God takes off. I know if I could escape them I would. But that’s not the God that He is.

When things feel hard and uncomfortable, He presses in.

And I’m the one left with the choice to stay or to run.

So in all the chaos of my emotion there is one thing I can do to honor God. It doesn’t involve changing or pretending I don’t feel the way I feel. It’s one thing that can make all the difference.

I can stay.

I can feel and still know He’s there. I can be angry and tell Him about it. I can get real with the One who knows it all anyway. Being real with God is better than running.

And when I tell Him what I feel, He considers it an honor to be there.


The word for today was honor. It was difficult for me to sort through my thoughts on this, but I finally decided just to write my heart. God is always honored by our heart, and that will always be enough.

Check out the other posts in my series 31 days to Finding Your Way Home, will you? It’s good to know I’m not alone on the journey!

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About Becky Hastings

I am emotional and logical. I am strong and dependent. I am a juxtaposition of head and heart exploring it all through writing. And in all my mixed-up ways I am loved. I'm here to tell you that you are, too. Just the way you are.

3 Replies

  1. Barbara LaBonté

    It was so great to read your post. I too feel intensely. I have had people tell me you put words to my feeling that I don’t have. I guess I would say that to you today.

    1. Becky Hastings

      Thank you Barbara. I used to think it was a bad thing (and honestly sometimes it still feels that way). But then I realized God made me this way and He can use just as I am. Every part of who we are is another way to find God. Keep feeling friend!

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