My Ink Dance

Discovering Extraordinary Grace in an Ordinary Life

Who Are You?

Who do you think you are? The voice whispers condescending in my ear. I know why it was a snake in the garden. It’s something about the hiss.
 
 
My answer comes slow and quiet.
 
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On shaky knees I reply, “I am a child of the Father.”
 
Are you really?
 
Yes?
Yes.
 
But somehow the question mark never fully disappears.
 
I’ve typed out words, scribbled them in notebooks even, on this very subject. This idea that I am, that you are, someone. And not just any someone, but someone with value, someone of great worth. Yet as many times as I pen those words brave, my knees still knock when it comes time to fully believe them.
 
Believing I am something wonderful when I see all my flaws is hard. It doesn’t make sense. But God didn’t come to make sense. He came to change the world, to change me, to change you.
 
I don’t know about you, but I fight change — hard.
 
 
None of our fight can scare God away. Not our knee shaking, trembling, question mark declarations. Not our pasted on smiles while the fear swirls like a tornado inside. Not our going to church on a Sunday after screaming at the family on the ride. God sees all our sides, and loves us the same.
 
 none of our fight can scare God away
 
It is, for sure, something I will never understand. He doesn’t ask us to understand. He only asks us to believe. Believe in who He says we are. Believe He will be who He says He will be. Believe when it feels hard and when we see the mess. That is our only job: to believe in grace.
 
When you hear that hiss in your ear, in your heart…Who do you think you are? you can answer with as much trembling as needed. Because it is all grace my friend. You may not understand it, but it is there still.
 
Answer scared, answer strong….just answer: “I am His.”

To better understand who God says you are, check out my upcoming book, Worthy: Believe Who God Says You Are. This 20-day devotional will change the way you live your life. See more HERE.

 

Linking words of hope today with Holley Gerth, Jennifer Dukes Lee, Kristin Hill Taylor and Susan B. Mead.

About Becky Hastings

I am emotional and logical. I am strong and dependent. I am a juxtaposition of head and heart exploring it all through writing. And in all my mixed-up ways I am loved. I'm here to tell you that you are, too. Just the way you are.

17 Replies

  1. So grateful that we can reply, “I am His!” and He fights for us, dispelling the hiss of the enemy. It may be hard for us to comprehend but we are precious to Him, flaws and all. May we know with assurance that we are His!

    1. Becky Hastings

      Yes Joanne! So true that He fights for us. Sometimes I forget that I try in my own strength (it doesn’t get me far!) I long to wrap my head around how He can love us so deeply while knowing us so intimately.

  2. Yes to the question and YES to the answer! So familiar. Thanks for sharing and encouraging on to bravely speaking this truth!

    1. Becky Hastings

      Thanks for being here today Bethany! I’m so glad we can walk this path with others!

  3. Hi, Becky. I don’t believe we’ve met. Cute name for your site. 🙂 This is such a beautiful post. Answering strong with you–“I am His.” PTL. Visiting from Holley’s place this morning. ((grace upon grace))

    1. Becky Hastings

      Thanks Brenda! So glad you’re here. I picture this band of women who are rising up and, what may start as a timid “yes”, turns into a “YES!!!” as we look around and see one another and stand together. Glad to be standing with you today!

  4. This is so beautiful. I feel you. Many times the enemy would whisper discouragement in my ears. I feel weaken and shaken but no I’m not backing down. Even when shaken, I declare and claim my identity. I’m a child of God.

    1. Becky Hastings

      YES & amen! You are a child of God Lux. No enemy can change that. Our feelings don’t even change that. So glad we are declaring together today!

  5. Becky, I think you’ve been reading my mind/heart. I can truly relate to this post, and these words: “Believing I am something wonderful when I see all my flaws is hard” – oh yes, painfully hard. I’m also a woman who fights change, makes her home in safe and familiar in a life that has felt anything but.
    Because God has shaken my perceptions, rattled my anxieties and certainties, and is continually throwing open the door of new opportunities. I am slowly seeing the light edging through as I peek through my fingers.
    Realising it’s about right believing rather than needing understanding. That the only certainties are those Jesus speaks over me. Not the lies from the past, nor the fears in my heart. You, and I, are women of worth just because He says we are, and willingly died to prove His love for us. Let’s aim to claim our new identity!

    1. Becky Hastings

      Your words are so real and so very encouraging! I’m so grateful to be claiming God’s truth together!

      1. You and me both, friend. I’m so glad we’ve connected! Bless you. 🙂

    1. Becky Hastings

      AMEN!!!

  6. Visiting from Holly’s. I really LOVE your thoughts and transparency. Thank you for sharing, such heartfelt truth.

    1. Becky Hastings

      I’m so glad you’re here Jane. Being transparent isn’t always easy for people, but I love how it connects us with one another and God!

  7. Love this post!! I struggle with this daily. Thanks for writing this! So helpful!

    1. Becky Hastings

      I’m glad to know I’m in great company! So grateful for God’s grace!

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