My Ink Dance

Discovering Extraordinary Grace in an Ordinary Life

When Your Giants Feel Too Big

I’ve been spending some time looking back. I’m not looking back to wallow or for pity. No, this looking back is to grow, to see how far I’ve come or what I still need to work on. Looking back can help us remember the lessons that we need to learn.

Today, I’m remembering how I felt years ago when all I felt were big things looming that I couldn’t get a handle on. There are still giants today, but knowing the truth in these words makes all the difference.


_cower_by_nondani-d3092mh

Sometimes I wonder how I can feel so small and my feelings can feel so big. They seem to loom over me with their “Fee-fi-fo-fum” and I cower deeper into myself. I try to battle the giants, but truth be told, I’ve never been a giant slayer.

I think I fight myself more than I fight the giants.

My giant has a name, but he doesn’t tell everyone. Instead, he wears hats with nicknames like:

Bad Mom

Fat

Ugly

Too Much

Never Enough

Emotional

Unworthy

I don’t think he likes me to use his real name because it’s not as powerful. All these nicknames, even his real name, is about me, not about him.

Insecurity

The word sinks deep and as many times as I bury it, it resurrects itself with a glance in the mirror or words yelled in anger. I do this to myself. I’ve yet to find an undo button for life.

So my giant stays.

And somehow I think I’m the only one with monsters that know my weak places before I do.

There’s a secret that I whisper hoping my heart and my head can listen.

My giant has a giant. His battle cry is not a “Fee-Fi-Fo” but a truth: “I AM.” Click To Tweet

And those two words take all my giants out at the knees until they are flat on their faces because those two words are all He needs.

The truth is, they are all I need.

Because I AM a child of the Giant above all others, and I don’t need to be giant slayer. He’s got me covered.


 When you’re facing giants that tower big and linger long, remember who you are and Who fights for you.


Sharing words with these great writers today!

Faith Filled Friday

Holley-Gerth-Button-250x250 (2)

tellhisstory-badge

susan meadGraceTruth-300x300kristin hill taylor


About Becky Hastings

I am emotional and logical. I am strong and dependent. I am a juxtaposition of head and heart exploring it all through writing. And in all my mixed-up ways I am loved. I’m here to tell you that you are, too. Just the way you are.

12 Replies

  1. God’s got it covered! Amen to that!

    1. Becky Hastings

      Amen! Glad you’re here Liz!

  2. Your creative style just makes this all the more memorable, Becky! Love it. Calling the giant by name with you, and calling on the name of the Giant’s Giant! Thanks!

    1. Becky Hastings

      Yes! Calling out together! Amen!

  3. Amen, Becky! Beautifully written truth! I can definitely relate to giant facing. What a blessing you and I don’t have to fight Him alone.

    1. Becky Hastings

      Isn’t that just the best news? I forget it so often. But He’s there, even when I forget!

  4. Hi Becky,
    I can so relate to your giants! And I love what you wrote about looking back, not to wallow, but to see how you’ve grown or how far you’ve come or what God has done to slay those giants. Yes, God’s got us covered! 🙂

    1. Becky Hastings

      I found myself looking back for all the wrong reasons before. Now, I hope to keep moving forward while looking back through the lens of grace. Amen!

  5. Looking Back is a relatively new practice for me in the last 10 months. I’m typically a fly by the seat of my pants kind of girl rarely taking time to reflect back. But such wisdom in doing just that – looking back. Love your blog and the “ink dance” – really cool. I look forward to following.

    1. Becky Hastings

      Melody, I’m so glad you’re here. Thank you for your kind words. I hope you get a chance to sign up so you get my FREE ebook…I think you’ll love it!

  6. It is interesting how so many of us have the very same giants! The enemy is not very creative when it comes to telling us his lies – but we are still so prone to believing them. I know we are getting better at this – especially since blogs and social media have become a huge part of our lives and has made sharing easier – but we must remember how important it is to shares these kinds of things. Maybe, just maybe, someone will stumble across our message and begin to understand that these are lies and we have the freedom to choose truth.
    Thanks for sharing on Grace and Truth!

    1. Becky Hastings

      Thanks Aimee. It’s great when our voices can unite and bring hope to so many. Isn’t that the real goal? Not that our voice be heard, but that our voice makes a difference for someone. (And also that we remind one another that we’re not alone!)

Leave a Reply