My Ink Dance

Discovering Extraordinary Grace in an Ordinary Life

Are You On the Right Track?

I feel the pull ahead of me. It draws me, half participant, half prisoner, in the direction I know is coming. I’ve been on this track for some time now and I feel simultaneously grateful and sad that there are few surprises.

photo credit: feedly.com

photo credit: feedly.com

Sometimes life becomes this thing we lock into. We seem to click our people and our jobs and our church into this track that sets our course for the next day, season, lifetime. We watch out the window of our life wondering how we got here, wondering if maybe we fell asleep because we don’t remember choosing the path we’re on.

We never chose the path, just like we never chose our fate. We only chose a thousand tiny pieces that got us to this place when we weren’t looking. Life can do that, move forward when we’re not looking.

And now we wonder, as the landscape speeds past the window and our heart catches a glimpse of a different track, a different path, how did I get here?

But really the how isn’t what matters most. The real question we need to ask ourselves is much harder: is this where I want to be?

Where I want to be

The possibilities of answers scare even the bold because it feels like so much rests in between the question and the answer.

Where do I want to be?

Am I there?

If I say no, does that mean I’ve made a mistake?

Does that mean I’m ungrateful?

Am I stuck here or put here?

And what would it take to change direction?

The unspoken can scare us into complacency as we watch the world fly by looking out the window of a life we’re unsure of.

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So, as I sit here, still and scared, with my hair whipping my face I cannot help but think that we need to be willing to ask the hard questions. And scarier still we need to answer them and act on those answers. Life was never meant to lock us into the predictable, but to inspire us to do the unpredictable.

About Becky Hastings

I am emotional and logical. I am strong and dependent. I am a juxtaposition of head and heart exploring it all through writing. And in all my mixed-up ways I am loved. I’m here to tell you that you are, too. Just the way you are.

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